Tuesday, April 25, 2006


How long, O Lord, how long?

My eyes are a river of tears
My fists are clenched in pain
My heart bleeds uncontrollably
My chest constricts, I cannot breathe
My head throbs with the reality of it all
My mind is numb, my body is exhausted.

My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

I'm sorry in advance for posting this, but it's honestly how I feel.

Life SINCERELY sucks.

That's all.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

A letter

Dearest little one,

I miss you so. You were such a part of me, although I never knew you. We spent five months doing everything together – eating, sleeping, going to work, taking walks, seeing friends and family. I played music for you on the piano as often as I could. Your daddy and I had such hopes and dreams for you, and were anxiously counting down the days til we could meet you. Remember how you waved to us when we saw you on the sonogram? Oh darling, how we wanted you!

But you were taken from us, precious little one. We would have done anything in the world to save you if we could have. I mourn the loss of your life and the emptiness your death has left in your daddy and me. You can never know the depth of our hurt and grief over losing you, nor the great love we will always have in our hearts for you.

I do not understand why we have been separated – I don’t think I will ever know. At times my tears seem endless, but, sweet son, I hold onto the hope that I will hold you someday, in heaven.

Until then, all my love,
Your mommy